Another love speech?

What is it, when you say you love someone? Is it just that feeling that you want them in the moment so much that you

willing to say anything? Or is it the feeling that no matter what, no matter when, you will do anything for that person?

No matter how small, how long, how hard, or how stupid the things you do are, you dont care anymore. You see, I have 

found the one person, that in this moment I would go to the end of the universe for. I'm not saying that this is just

lust where everything will always be okay. Sure there will be arguements, disagreements, yelling and distance. Yet that is

not what matters. For no matter what has happened and what will happen, one thing hold true. In the moment, that person 

is yours. After all is said and done. They are the one that you want to hug and kiss. The one you just want to hold and 

never let go. The one that no matter how much you say it "I love you" just cant mean enough. You see, the way I see it is

that words can really describe how I feel in this so called "Love". Its so much more than that. Its the feelings that when 

you fall asleep next to them, you never want to sleep becuase the only way the time with them could be better is if you 

have a dream about them. The feeling that when you kiss them, no matter what is happening around you or in your own mind,

it all kind of just drifts away. In their arms the world is just simple. No worries, no regrets. Now it cant always be that way.

We all know that there must be some sort of disagreement here and there. No human is perfect and we know that. No two 

people are alike in likes and dislikes either. We will all get our own point across no matter how much we want or dont

want to. Its not by choice most of the time. Just the knowledge that the person we are argueing with will be there when

the dust settles. Living without fear in the person your with is where love plays its role. I see lust as seeing only

a persons beauty and good side. You see once you can accept that a person has faults, yet you may still see them as 

perfect, that may be when you can say you love them. When that person sees you in the worst time you have, yet doesnt 

disguise that they want to be with you. That may be acceptance sure, but it might not be only to the mind. A lot of 

people think that love can only be thought about. Most dont realize that this is not true love. True love has no doubt.

I mean sure, again you will have your differences, but we all will. The time you know that it is true. Is after that fight,

after that arguement or whatever, in your mind you dont think. You feel something missing in your heart. You know that you 

will miss that person in a matter of minutes. The feeling of not being able to make it far without them. That person

becomes everything to you. It no longer matters what they were, Its doesnt matter what they will be. The one thing that

matter is the person they make you becuase of it. After all the longing for their touch, after all the sweet feeling of the

sun and their lips pressed against you. After its all over, the one feeling that you get from it all will let you know what 

that person is to you. I know this because I believe I may have felt it. Sure some will say "Oh your to young" or "Oh your so blind" blah 

blah blah, Its all bullshit. For once I am not afraid of it. All the other times, those words ment something to be. 

I thought they were right, Maybe I am to young, Maybe I was letting it hurt me and being stupid about it. However, This

time they are wrong. Its me and her, and nothing else matters. No matter what, after all the fights, arguements and 

other stuff we go through. I know one thing and that is that she is the one I will look at and smile before I fall asleep.

She is the one that will be in my head the whole day tomorrow. She is the one that I will long for two minutes after she leaves.

She is the one that will kiss me and my stomach will turn to a knot from nervousness everytime. She will be the one

to stand next to me after all the rest have turned their backs and walked out. She is the one that will put up the defense,

 put up that wall that I cant seem to get around. She is the one I know I will argue with, and have verbal fights with. 

Yet she is also the one that stands by me. The one I call mine and dont care what anyone else thinks. Sure some may think that way, 

even her. But the truth is, its just out of fear of the unknown. Without her I would be lost. I wouldn't know what to

do when I woke up tomorrow. All my time, all my values, all my hope, all my happiness, all of it would just go away. 

I know for damn sure that, that feeling would linger on forever. Something that great will never go away. This feeling 

is not just loose words being written from a mind to a keyboard. This is a feeling from the heart. This is true. This is the most

complex and confusing feeling in the world. Yet I love it. I never want to let it go. Sure it can be altered and fixed in some areas,

but it will always be the same in the end. No matter how long it takes or how hard it gets. I wont let that go away. I will keep it as close to me as my own mind. Its the one person that counts, and she knows now that I mean it when I say....I love you.

Back and tired as ever!

Hey guys. Its almost midnight and I should not be awake. I start school tomorrow which I am half nervous half excited about. Luckily I have two classes so it won't be to hard. Although the online classes may have messed up, Im still pretty happy that  I get to finally say im going to school for something. However I must sleep now so this blog shall be short. Im going to go get some food, Finish this game then head to bed. Goodnight everyone :)

Its about that time that the normal people wake up?

Hello world! It is currently 5:03 in the morning. I have yet to sleep. The ambient music and light seems to be playing its part in this serious case of insomnia. However I have chose to be productive through the night (My defenition of "Productive" is often thought to be far different from others). You see, I have been playing video games all night. Yet that is not it! I have been browsing the intorwebz also. So here I am to discuss with you, my adventures. I am currently being an "Achievement Whore". Now I think that this title should be put to its use....I will be taking payments as soon as possible. If I am going to be a whore....well I should be getting paid for my hard work! I will keep you updated with my Gamerscore from now on! Updates will be every time i game. The game title and amount of points in the game will be added to random blogs. If you wish to follow me on twitter that would also let you in on this information...and also let you stalk me.

So lets begin! This will be the diary of the whore with no pay...Today I begun my adventure with Mercenaries 2. I expected this game to be a quick hour of hatred and pain. Yet it was far from it. After hearing of many bugs, glitches and so much more bashing, my expectations sure were not high. So as I popped this game in my Xbox I took a deep breath, sat back and grabbed my controller. After the first mission I found myself to get a little into the game. I didn't notice any glitches or bugs (Excluding an achievement glitch that didn't pop). The game ran great. The joy of blowing random buildings up and driving a tank through an already have screwed town seemed to tickle my fancy. As you may guess, Yes I liked this game. This game deserves a real playthrough and some sit down time. This is also the second game that has changed my mind about listening to people totally on games (Too Human being the first). So after two days of play i got my 180 out of 1000 and returned this game to its place on the rental shelf and debated if it would come back to my hands. 

BUT WAIT! This is not where it ends. Upon my return, I returned Mercenaries 2. In exchange I grabbed Command and Conquer 3: Tiberium Wars. This game is an alright game for its age. I got the RTS feel from the game which is what I was looking for. Although I am only about two to three hours into the game. I am getting some enjoyment out of it. I also pre-ordered Fable II for the 360. The Pub games are a whole slew of fun and I expect to be playing them for a while now. 

So now that that is covered. I currently sit at 17,650 Gamerscore...Will we see the break of 18,000 tomorrow? Stay tuned to find out!

Some stuff to make you think!

Here are just a few questions to make you think! Leave comments on what you think!

1)What hair color do they put on the license of a bald man?

2)When animal food is said to be improved flavor, Who tests it?

3)Why does 7-11 have locks on the door if its open 24-7-365?

4)If your driving at the speed of light and turn headlights on...what happens?

5) Why are they called APARTments when they are all together?

6) Why is stuff moved on a ship called CARgo and stuff in a car is SHIPment?

7)It is believe that 5 out of 4 people have trouble understanding fractions.

8) If its zero degrees today and supposed to be twice as cold tommorow, how cold will it be?

9)Why do you press on the remote button harder in hope to change something when you know the battery is dead?

10) Why do you turn down the music in the car when looking for something?

11) Why do doctors call what they do a pratice?

12) Do you control your mind or does your mind control you?

13) When is a terrorist not a freedom fighter?

14)When your at a movie theater alone and two people sit next to you, Who do the armrests belong to?

15)Where does a toetag go on a dead person if they lost their toes?

16)If you dug a hole through the earth and jumped in where would you go?

17) Why isnt allstate insurance not availabe in all states?

18) Do they bury people with braces on?

19) Can deaf people sign with food in their mouths?

Time for sleep. Expect this blog to be updated/edited a lot!

Its time, Pirates VS Ninjas!!!!

The fight begins! Which is better, Pirates or Ninjas? Before we begin I must say that I am on the Ninja side of things and here is my reason why!

The reasons:

1) Ninjas are based on stealth. They aren't into the whole blarg kill blarg tactics. They just show up without the victim knowing and finish their jobs.

2)The Ninja clothing line is much greater. The clothes fit tight so they may move fast and without getting hung up on stuff. Pirates on the other hand wear loose clothes, jewelery, and an eyepatch. 

3) Sword location to a Ninja is key. Most Ninjas are seen with the Katana on their backs, while pirates wear it off to the side. This is key to fighting and being disarmed. The Pirate has a greater chance of loosing his sword in battle as it is facing the enemy.

4) A pirate has an eyepatch. This is the worst idea in the world. Giving up one eye before the fight? You tell me how that was a good idea....

5)Ninjas going through long and hard training for years to become what they are. Pirates sail through the sea looking for a ship to fight while yelling random stuff.

6) Ninjas are all about skill and being unseen. Pirates yell in their drunkin manner and try to fight face to face.

7)Pirates kill for fun and hope their is a reward. Ninjas outsmarted them and asked for the money upfront!

8) I pirate has a gun and a sword...Ninjas have many many more deadly weapons to choose from.

9) A Ninja will never boast. They respect silence and peace. They know their mind and spirit as one with their bodies. They are fully trained killing machines!

10) This one is said for me:

"If you vote Pirate, I guess that means you enjoy downing a frosty with your blasphemous mates while checking out the chicks, ready to poke someone's eye out for looking too.  Loser!  Lazy bum!  Get some discipline!!  Become a ninja!  "

Its the end of the world as we know it!

Hey guys, This is the first thing I have written in a while. Didn't take very long...But I hope you like it! Let me know what you think!

Silence broke to sirens as the world went to hell,

You looked at me with no breath in your lungs,

One last scream before the buidlings above you fell,

Grip my hand for this is where we die,

Desperate for an answer I ask that your lips accompany mine,

With a world wasted away,

You showed me something that I never thought I could find,

A spark exploded just like the sun today,

As the dirty air fills our lungs we know that this is the end,

I push you away for you would not be let into heaven if I came along,

This dried up city street is the place I belong.

Take my hand one last time,

Look into the black skies as the world dies,

This is the last pain that we will feel,

Embrace me tonight like we just met,

Let your heart know that this was all real.

Tomorrow we will not wake,

You, Me and our enemies will all be gone,

Ours love and lies this world will take,

Dont let anymore words linger on your shaking lips,

Don't take your life when its all that you have left,

For when you wake up,

All this will be gone and you will be in a better place,

Yet right now is not your time,

One more night will be fine,

Lay with me and lets make a toast to the end or the world,

Babe tonight it ends but tonight your mine.

Time for the sex talk?

Hmm I think it is time for this talk. Yet this is not what you may think. I am not here to talk about reasons to have sex or tell you not to. Tonight I write about the place in out mind we hold sex. I believe it may be somewhat the same for everyone. Not some may think sex is great because the feeling, the passion, the connection or just the lable, while others may think its aweful. Most of the people who don't like sex have either never experienced it or they think that way becuase of religion. Now don't get me wrong, We all have different thoughts and morals. However this blog is aimed more for the ones who have had sex or the open minded people. For I am not writing just about sex, I am also writing about Love. Now you may be thinking, Oh we get the blah blah sex and love dont go together blah blah talk all the time. However this is not one of those talks.

Where does sex and love come together and when should they be apart? Most relationships include sex, right? Now some people say that sex is not all you should think about in a relationship and they are right. I mean you should be close to your boyfriend/girlfriend, Husband or wife in many other ways. Yet for people to say that wanting sex in a moment that may not be "Right" is against loving someone, I see this as an excuse. You see, as a teenager I get to here the "All they want is sex" talk all the time. Yes I can admit that men do want sex often, but why blame someone for wanting a good feeling? I think that the reason behind the sex is where you must judge from. If you met a guy or girl at a bar and find yourself wanting them after a few drinks, that might just be sex and thats it. Now if you spent some time with a girl and got to the dating (or close) status, then I think a little intimate moment is alright. Now if you guys have a good dinner and movie just to return to the house and cuddle. Things might get a little heated. Now girls dont be offended by this, and guys dont be mad if the girl rejects you. I think we must understand both sides of the coin however. You see for guys, Our mantality may take over a little and we desire a girl. Yet another reason is that we just want to be closer in some way and sex is a good one. We are no longer doing it for the feeling, but rather for the sense of holding her close and enjoying her presence. Now for girl, they do have feelings to. A girl may deny you or accept. I have noticed that this is based on a little talking and their feelings that night. You see a girl might be having her time of the cycle or just be in a crabby attitude. They could also just want a night off and not be having the same idea as you. Women also seem to have a greater range of reasons not to, Cramps, Sore, Tired, Not wanting it in the same hole that you want to put it in, Still awake, Didn't spend enough time at the bar, or just doesnt feel like its right. However the reason does not matter. This is the moment in when you find if you love someone or not. If the girl or guy says no, Base your actions on how you feel. Now if you are extremely horny then you might want to try a little talking, If that fails then give up. But if you are just there for that reason and you know it, he/she may not be the one for you. If you are willing to give the offer through action or words and get rejected, understand your loss. Pull your loved one in close and kiss them on the cheek. Close your eyes and hope you have better luck next time. You see your own satisfaction is not more important than the one feelings of the one laying next to you. 

I think that about sums it up for the differences in feelings on love and sex. I am stopping now mainy because I am really really tired and must rest. However this can go on and on, So if you wish to talk or have a healthy discussion about it then comment me. You can also reach me on my myspace. Have a good night everyone. Please comment.

A little ghost story before bed....

I know the title might give this one away but here we go. I have a little ghost story for everyone. Well I guess its not really a "Ghost" story. Its more of a odd night story. You see I work in the kitchen of a retirement home. Their are many many elderly people there, so we see people pass away pretty often. However tonight was an odd night.

You see I am one of the last people in the kitchen. That means that I am alone or far away from anyone to talk to. Sure your mind begins to wonder and you trick yourself into seeing or hearing things. Tonight I wish it was just that. As I went to one of the smaller kitchens in the huge place, I had an odd feeling. I was filled with some sort of sadness and felt empty.I had a vibe if you will, That someone had died. Quickly denying myself I went on with the day. However again my nose started to stuff up and I began to feel funny. After just pushing it off for about an hour, I came to the thought of asking is someone had passed away. You see this wasn't the first time I have had this feelng. I thought I should ask the front desk people if someone had passed. Yet I thought that would be rude, So again I went about my day. 

After my best friend and I finished out tasks for the night, We took the elevator to the basement and then walked to the parking lot. After we left to the main parking lot, We saw lights. A fire truck and an ambulance were out front....The feeling again hit me. I was right, Someone did pass. So what is this feeling I got? Is it of meaning or just a lucky guess? You tell me...

Its been a while!

Hey everyone! Its been a couple of days since I have blogged so here is the spill on why. After spending a few nights with my girlfriend and being away from the internet I began to notice something. The average person spends way to much time on the internet. I noticed that I could spend hours on the internet blogging, visiting social networks, talking in forums or watching videos. Yes the internet can be the best place excluding outside, but how much of your life are you wasting on it? Sure some of you are making millions on the internet while others are making E-Friends. So when is it to much and when does it matter? If you are pulling in the money from the internet, sure its the place for you. Yet if you are fighting about who has more friends on myspace, you might need to step outside the door and see that someone might have more friends in real life.

Now sure I to spend a lot of time on the internet. However my time spent on the intorwebz is very spaced out. I blog, visit Myspace, Facebook and Stickam, Check E-mails, Follow up on Downloads, Visit others blogs, Talk to people who do have a job on the internet, along with many other things. Now this isn't a stab at calling people lazy, however for the ones that care about the friends they have on the internet.....Please go outside.

Now if you have a good excuse to stay here then stay please (No World of Warcraft raids do NOT count). But if you fit the description CNN would give to a teen addicted to computers...They might be right. So that was the spill of the day. A couple minutes of random thinking about the internet pushed onto one page. Now off to work to see what else I can think of writing.

Another morning blog before bed

As you most likely didn't guess, This morning was full of confusion. As I sat in front of my laptop wondering what to blog about for the day, I was also having a conversation with the one and only Mike Doe. Of course its a day to write about 9/11, but I also wanted to break away from the norm a bit. Now if you don't know who Mike Doe is, I suggest you go read up a bit. Now sure its a day that makes us all sad today, but that doesnt mean you shouldn't smile. If your having a hard time figuring out how to do that then I think you should go to MikeDoe.net. MikeDoe.net holds some of the funniest and best "news" if you will. You can find a lot of info on your favorite celebs, movies, shows and so much more. I really suggest taking some time out of your day and going to the site. Click anywhere and just explore, I promise you will laugh or even have an occasional wtf? So if you are not to busy today and you want to smile instead of frown about the date, Go ahead and visit the site. Sit back, Go to a couple links and enjoy the stay. Hell you could even become a doe-nut (The shirt alone is worth holding someone hostage)! Trust me when I say, One visit to the blogs and other random stuff, you will keep coming back for more or sitting in your room craving some doe when your computer blue-sreens out of to much awesomeness in one place! 

For the Fallen

As you know, Today is September 11th 2008. This marks one more year since the horrible day when the twin towers fell in New York City. Aside from your cell phones, myspaces, Facebooks or other things that can recieve spam mail, I to think we should respect the fallen and enjoy our day. Now I dont mean enjoy your day in a rude way at all. I mean I think that today will be a great day to understand what kind of things a single person is capable of. Now you may doubt yourself as a person when it comes to doing great things, but there is no reason not to. On the 11th I doubt that any one of the firemen, police officers, nearby office workers and people on the street were prepared for what happened. However once the first plane hit, the United States was changed forever. Those few but brave people jumped into action and saved a lot of lives, yet we still lost so many. 

Now some of you believe that this was all a set up for a big financial break set up by the government. If you have seen "Loose Change" or "Zeitgeist" then you might agree too. However a lot of people are blinded or even raged by this truth that they don't want to believe. Some even think that, that day was just a bunch of bull and taking of lives. However that does not mean we should forget this day, or even hold it as hate in our hearts. I do agree that we should say screw the Government for what they may have done and the things they have and will do. Screw them for keeping us in this war that no one wants to be in. Screw them for using this war as a way of selling weapons, ammunition, food, gas and other materials. However, Remember the ones that matter. The ones that died on that day trying to save lives. This goes out to them. Have a happy afterlife, to whichever god or place you go. May it be great and joyfull. You did a great thing while you were here with us, And we love you for it.

Well everyone...Looks like we lived!

As you know, The LHC was to be set off this morning. As you may have noticed, You have lived! Some still may not even know what this LHC thing is and why people care about it. Here is a quick video on what the LHC is and what it does.

Something you may not know is that the LHC was just to be "Tested today". The main full power collision will not take place until the end of october of this year. Therefore dont think that you are safe yet. Sure you lived the small version of the big bang, you might not make it past the next one. For those of you that wanted to jump into the beam and see if you could become a super hero, I think your chances will be higher in a few months. Also if you were hiding in your basement sucking your thumb this morning fearing that you would die, there is always a next time. But hey, This is just a step closer to curing cancer and finding out how our universe works. If the next one works, our world will be at the next level of technology. So I guess we will have to wait till October to see if we live this next one. Expect a blog as well as many blogs inbetween now and then on this subject.

Have we survived?!?!?!

I think its time to talk about the LHC (Large Hadron Collider). First off we might want to start off with what this thing is. The LHC is mankinds next step to taking over the universe. Really there are two of these giant machines. The idea is that, they will shoot protons beams in opposite directions around a ringed perimiter guided by magnets at around the speed of light. When the two beams collide a whole slew (YAY SLEW! That was for Flitz!) of things could happen. Although it is below 3% chances, we could see mini- black holes and strangelets, resulting in out planet becoming a quasar and sucking in the surrounding solar system. The plan of this happening had an effect of the public of course. Many calls were made to the man in charge of public relations, James Gillies. Although there is no hope in stopping a project that has cost nearly 9 Billions dollars and has been worked on for 54 years. 

Scientists are quick to back themselves up with claims that mother nature has done what they are doing here but on a larger scale and we are still here. Another claim was that this collision was like two mosquitoes colliding and that anything that could happen will be on a very small scale. 

However many people are scared that this is how the world ends. Others feel they are safe until 12/21/2012 at 11:11. So what does this god like creation really do? This machine may help find the cure to cancer and give us knowledge about the working of our universe. The LHC will be the greatest accomplishment of man kinds and also the most powerfull product on the planet. Some believe that we are not ready for such a great thing. A nation that still has some anger with other countries under their belt holding the most powerfull weapon in man kind could have a devastating result (Yes the LHC can also be used as a weapon). So one machine to either cure or destroy the planet. 

However the beam fired today and that was just a little background :). We all are going to live it seems! So high five for everyone! So go visit NerdiestKids.com and follow the link to the celebration playlist. I will be blogging later in the day or tomorrow morning for the results on testing. This blog was to give you any knowledge you might not have on the upcoming post. Therefor I must depart! Ill see you all later on.

The feelings of love!

Hey everyone! Ninja here. I just started up on the whole blog thing so excuse the lack of background with it. I think the first thing I shall blog about is love. I have been confronted with this subject quite a bit and its got me thinking. A few people have asked me what love is and where it comes from. The answer to where it comes from is a little more complex than it seems. Some love may come from the heart sure, but some may come from the mind. I guess you could call the love from the mind lust but that decision is yours. My arguement is that if you must feel all love from the heart than the love for you have for good food or a certain drink is love from the heart. This leads into what love is. Love is great recognition in something right? When you give so much acknowledgement into something that it becomes of importance makes you love it, right? So if i'm sitting at the breakfast table and think of how much I like the pancakes that are sitting infront of me, does that mean I love them? Sure, its just a different type of love. If I am playing with my dog in the park and am happy, that means I love my dog. Of course its simple, Its not that hard to understand that I love my dog. The fact is that this is not the same love I would show my girlfriend or my mother. The types of love are endless. Some love could even be bad. You may notice that this world has a love to conflict, war, greed, money and all that jazz. Love isn't always as great as we want it to be. So next time you think about how you feel about anyone or anything, realize the true feelings you feel. Also when a friend says they love you and care about you, Dont think they are kidding. Teenagers please understand that love can be a little complex than you want to make it. Love can be simple and easy. You are the one that gives "I love you" meaning, Not the person saying it.