Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Dead body with a beating heart

We all know that they say that the body and the mind are all we truly own. However what keeps them going? I have found that it takes your family, your friends and a job. Your family becomes your body, your friends become your heart, blood and bones, and your job becomes your mind. Let me explain this. You see the reason most of us wake up in the morning and get the mind going is because we have to go to work, right? When we are at work, most of the time that is all we are thinking about. Sure the occasional thought will come to mind of, what are the kids doing, how is someones day, what am I getting when im off work? and so on so forth. The mind is fragile. Without a job, stress begins to play a large role. When people ask you for money you start to feel worthless becuase you have none. It begins to poison the mind and change you. Some make it out of this and get away from that pain. While others dwell in it and begin to become something they dont want to be. Now for the body. The family supports you and make your carry yourself through. Without a family you have no drive to do anything at all really. You seem to loose the love in that helping hand, The embrace of warming arms, The back to support the burdens, and the strength to make it through the day. You no longer can handle walking the distances you used to for people and have no love for what you look like to the world. Once your family turns its back, you begin to loose the self image you once had of yourself. Now for the heart. The thing that keeps us alive. The only thing that can hold enough meaning to be this are friends. They are the ones that keep the other parts alive. When your family seems to go away, your friends become that family. When you loose your job, your friends are there to support you and keep you going. They are the ones that push you and keep everything okay within yourself. Now I have felt all of these effects. I have begun to loose my mind from not having a job. Constantly pushing myself back and feeling like a worthless person. I have felt what its like to have an expectation set so high of you and not hit that mark. I have felt what its like for my family to turn its back on me for a stupid reason and feel like you cant take that next step. It hard to carry the burden that comes with that with no backbone.